I Love Carl
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| I don’t know what’s going on. Carl doesn’t answer any of my calls. He hasn’t answered any of my text messages. He has blocked me from his screen names. He has read the e-mails I’ve written him but he hasn’t said anything back. What’s going on? Why won’t he tell me? What did I do wrong? I can’t think of anything. I left Tally to come home and be with my daddy in what were his last hours. I told Carl where I was going. What did I do wrong? I’ve been trying to call him nonstop. I need him. I have no one. He is my bf. He is supposed to be there for me. I was just going to drive back to Tally yesterday because I needed to get away, but I decided against it because Carl wouldn’t pick up his phone. He is the only person I’d want to stay with. I don’t want to drive all the way up there to stay alone. I don’t know what to do. I’m lost. I’m confused. Carl is on my mind 24/7. This is just killing me. It is breaking my heart even more. I lose my daddy and now Carl isn’t talking to me or acknowledging me. I’m to point were I want to like call his father and ask him if he knows what Carl is doing. It is too the point were I almost want to start hurting Carl. I can’t hurt him. I love him too much. God I love him. I really need him. Why doesn’t he see that? Why can’t he at least let me know what is going on? I deserve that. I deserve to know why he is ignoring me. I have every right. I don’t want this to turn ugly. I just want to know what’s going on. I just want to know why he is ignoring me. Why he blocked me? Why did he pick the time that I needed him most? He is slowing killing me. I’m a mess. I haven’t been able to stop crying. I just need him to let me know what’s going on. I deserve that. I deserve that. |
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The Scorpion Fish
They have large, spiny heads and strong, sometimes venomous, fin spines. Many species blend with their surroundings by virtue of their dull colour, but some are brightly coloured, often red. The largest species grow to about 40 in. (1 m) long. Scorpion fish lie quietly on the bottom, often among rocks.]]>
TOP 10 WORDS OF 2004
The top 10 words of the year based on searches of Merriam-Webster Web sites.
1. blog
2. incumbent
3. electoral
4. insurgent
5. hurricane
6. cicada
7. peloton
8. partisan
9. sovereignty
10. defenestration
http://www.cnn.com/2004/TECH/internet/11/30/words.of.the.year.reut/index.html]]>
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Mario brothers on piano while blindfolded.
And along the topic of asians being quite simply amazing, I want to thank this man for setting an example for all religious people -- Mormons, follow his lead!]]>
Things are looking bright for Kerry, according to some preliminary exit polls, also there is a HUGE voter turn out, which should only be good for Kerry.
However Bush could still win... no war time incumbent president has ever lost in a reelection. Though, there are a lot of people who feel passionately about both candidates, so it's really up to whose base is the most motivated.
If Kerry wins, I'll buy lunch for the first 10 people who ask me
Who do you guys think will win? Any insight into the whole ordeal? Think Ross Perot should win via write in? Think Tucker Carlson is a fag?
Update: Nothing yet, but here are CNN's election results, for when they do come in.]]>